these are supposed to ease my pain when i'm running.. haha hope i din get e wrong ones... lol... 

treating my tired legs to some foot reflex.. blah blah blah.. dunno how to spell again.. lol.. Shiok ah... 

Me, me n more of me... 

haha.. this is me character in ms.. lol 

haha.. baobei character in ms.. cool right? 

Last Bravo Shift Get-Together before e new shift start.. n fyi, i was drunk... lol n i left a packet of "Tau Suan" at 848.. lols... guess some of u noes wat i mean.. lol 

phew.. hvn been blogging for e past 2 weeks or so... e reason was simple... lol... i'm just plain lazy.. lol... another reason was that ... kekeke... me was busy playing online game maple story.. n to hv another nicer excuse will be there's nth much for me to blog.. kekekek....

hmmm... ok ok, let see wat i hv here installed for all of u who read my blog... hmmm.... first n foremost... i'm so so so so tired... especially my legs... haha... finally went to macritchi (dunno how to spell) lol.. hv a taste of e x country route.. omg... it had been 2 yrs since i last went there... and... to me, e route seem longer eventhough we r running e same route.. lol... funny right? guess i too long din run le ba.. haha. to put it simple it just means that my running sucks... lol....

hmm... let see let see... ya.. i also hurt my left little finger on last tuesday... haha... hurt it when i was closing e door after getting a lift from sean... so stupid of me right? to close e door when my little finger is still by e edge of the car... i dunno how to describe e pain to u.. but it was really very painful... i kept shouting n owwing n ouching.. lol... then tat ah boi still tht i was kidding with him n he told me to shut up becos i am a combatant... WAH WAH WAH... combatant not human meh... n also, it really hurts lor.. lol tat's wat i told him.. anyway went to report sick.. e MO was another idiotic guy.. he look at me finger n say ouch... and give me e amm chio face.. cannot make it.. he gave me some pain killers n arrange for me to hv an xray taken... which was already doned this morning... hmmm.... took cab from my place to sembawang camp.. haha e taxi driver is one funny man... i told him e place i wanted to go and he said ok i noe.. but becos of me personality, i dun quiet trust cab drivers.. haha so i told him e directions.. then e uncle said.. hmmm.. i told u i noe e way liao, u stil dun believe ah? i said "yalor.. thought u noe but i still must confirm mah..." then he replied " wah.. then u are one who dun trust people fully lor... " i replied, "maybe" n finally i reach e destination.. lol... had my xray taken... n then went back to medical center.. tht i could hv my review today so tat i wont hv to spend anotherday doing all these thing.. but cannot, medicalreview needs an appointment.. so bo bian, got e date n must come back again another day...

so i went back to work, n b4 i noe, it was lunch time.. heard from colleague that someone or shld i say some busy bodies were talking bahind my back, discussing my mc n my recall thingy... so stupid of them... they tht i kena recalled last monday n then i purposely go take mc on friday.. pls lah.. people got eyes to see one lor.. who are those who behaves in this manner we all noe.. but u say i'm one of them.. then i think ur ur ur ur ur ur n ur eye tiap stamp lor... haha.. actually was rather angry when i heard these remarks.. but then think again, i got nth to hide n i am not wat they say so why be angry... ha... all these started becos of one stupid man... due to me mc, he was supposed to be recalled.. but he couldn't make it and ask e 2nd standby to take over his recall... then.. e 2nd standby couldn't make it too and he get another guy to do e recall... e guy who kena is really sway lor.. cos almost every time recall, is him who kena... wah.. then he was rather unhappy over it and they quarrel i suppose... then becos of the stupid guy who was on 1st standby could make it... it turn a big circle n it resulted that it's because i'm on mc then things turn out this way... for goodness sake lah... u r e first standby n if u cannot make it, what right do u hv to tell e 2nd standby off by saying, " if u on 2nd standby, dun say u cannot make it for e standby ok" wah.. then u urself leh? u'r e first standby leh, then y u cannot make it? why push e blame on others?? if u urself cannot do it, then pls dun point fingers n then when things cock up, dun blame e one who took mc lor... cannot imagine how can one grow til so old (going 40 yrs old) still act like a dunno wat... really cannot make it.. a man dun seem to be a man.. dare not shoulder responsibility... wat can u do?? nth lor.. just that u got a rank higher than other lor.. but to me , u cannot make it.. lol

haiz... wat else had happen ne?? er... er... er... dunno lea.. haha just fell like going overseas again.. lol.. think i tio gong tao liao.. kept wanna go overseas.. lol... hmmm tahan tahan.. must tahan first... lol... ok lah.. so much for now.. feel so gd after letting out what i've kept within me.. haha... fish those who talk behind me back.. lol.... byeee...

see his "Fierce fierce" look.. lolx.. trying to act cool ah? 

see my yandao cousin Javier.. lolx.. he made those "my singapore" tees lor... haha.. cute right? 

e results is out.. no miracles for me.. i am not taking the sept paper... My colleagues n camp mates congratulate me for getting gd results n i truly appreciate all of them.. but honestly speaking.. wat' e use of having gd results? cos it doesn't mean anything... haiz... since it's already like tat, i can let myself slip deeper into all these shit feeling.. so i gotta pull myself back to reality.. haha.. since i am not taking e sept paper.. this means i hv more time for gamin... wahahaha LOLX wahahaha....

Hmm.. past few days had been great.. been meeting up with my baobei over e last 2 off day.. went to shop n eat.. not too bad.. then i also went over to my grandma hse to play with my cousin.. they were simply adorable... lolx...

hmmm... training for e x-country started.. lolx.. hvn been running for few mths.. think it's going to be hell for me.. but i will definately overcome it.. hopefully lah.. kekeke... so much for now.. blog again soon.. tata...

Know wat.. saw my results for e test today... I was e highest scorer for my class, which 69 pple took e test.. but overal compare to another class of more senior n critical pers,l i am e 2nd highest scorer 12pts shy of a MSG... Shld be very happy right?? But i'm not.. on e other hand, i felt so disappointed n sad... Y?? u may ask... Well just as i mentioned in e earliest post... no matter how well i do for e test.. I DUN QUALIFY for e sept exam.. COS I AM NOT CRITICAL EHAF!!!! WTF????

Haiz... My instructor said he had recommended me, but til now no news of it yet.. so i guess my chances are slim.. very slim... are there miracles in this whole? if there is.. pls.. grant me one... let me go for e sept paper...

THIS ONE TOO!!! 

SEE THIS??? 

Feeling abit sickly when i woke up this morning.. but still dragged myself to work.. but b4 i left my house, my tummy feel wierd wierd liao.. so i went to do "big business" before leaving for work.. on e way to work, tummy dun feel gd.. think ate too much tom yam n oily stuff yesterday.. but nevertheless i reach office...

tht it's going to be a brand new start of the cycle.. but shit.. really shit.. it's a bad bad start... Was really anxious to noe abt me test results cos i wanted very much to take e sept exam.. anone sane would want an extra chance and clear watever exam they hv right?? n i am one of them.. if i hv e capability to do it in sept.. then y not? Though my instuctor had told me that i had pass n that he had recommended me, but all these yr in this organisation taught me that nth is confirm unless it's stated in black n white... so i ask my pc for e results.. "Dun see e results.. later i'll brief u all" was e reply i get... immediately, my heart sank n i knew something bad was coming.. n indeed... they are not going to see e results n determined who will be sitting for e sept paper... instead they are looking at the yrs of service in e organisation... WTF!!!!!????!!!! if that's e case, wat for gave us false hope that as long as we do well for e test, we can sit for e sept paper... WTF???? no doubt doing well is for our own gd.. but do u know that thinking that e chance of sitting e sept paper encourages us to work even harder too?? we all wanna get it over and done with.. we all wanted e chance.. n i can say we all deserved the chance too... but WTF is all these?? No chance at all cos we r still junior.. so why ask us to study now when we are still junior?? y dun e organisation all let us study when we are more critical?? this does not justify wat e organisation is doing.. Work hard so that we can hv a chance to sit for e exam.. we worked hard.. but WHERE e HELL is e chance?? E organisation rather let those who fish care take than us.. is this fair?? IS THIS FISHING FAIR??? i very very pissed off with all these now... forgive me for using all these uncivilise words... cos i am really very pissed off... If by pushing myself so hard to pass each n every test is so taken for granted.. i dun see e point to do well... no doubt u told me not to go to e negative side.. but.. everyone has a limit... if i'm being pushed to a corner.. i dunno what i will do... i dun wish to lose faith now.. but i just can see any end to this tunnel now.. let alone light... i just hope those who got e chance to take e sept paper will grip tightly to e opportunity... cos not everyone can be as lucky as u... dun let e opportunity slip away... n as for those who got in without even passin e test.. PLS.. PLS for goddness sake show n prove to me that i am wrong.. Prove to me that u pple can do it... n i am not wasting my slot for u pple!!!!!!

Deep inside i still hope that there's still chance for me to sit for e sept paper... but i noe e chances are slim... very very slim... for those who think u r my frens.. pls pray for me.. pray that i can see e end of the tunnel, pray that i will not lose my faith... pray that i can still carry on...... thank you.

Latest pic from Bravo Shift.. taken at our last gathering.. see.. i am crying... 

Here's another one.. Taken at alan's wedding.. Bravo shift all e way...  

Members of Bravo Shift.. I believe one of these days we'll be togehter again... 

Wow.. it has been a week or so since i last blog.. so many things had taken place.. wonder if i can remember all anot.. kekeke...

First n foremost.. e shift reshufflement had taken place.. i hv a new ic n some new colleagues... but til now.. one of them stil hv not "see" him yet.. cos he is on mc... buay tahan.. 1st 2 days of work take mc liao.. to us is cannot make it lor.. anyway... things so far had been pretty much e same.. just tat hv a new ic, n we are all still trying to noe more abt each other ba.. but so far so gd leh... cos many pple say she is a gd superior leh.. so i'll just keep my fingers crossed n pray that she is one.. kekeke....

hmmm... next was e promotion treat thingy.. omg... really hv to do lots of things sia.. if i am not in e committee, i won't hv know that need so many coordination n help to get such things going... but nevertheless, though it was tiring but i learnt quite a nr of things from there.. haha... lao da n jeff joked tat i will be e first female csm of me coy.. i think they mad liao... anyway.. gotta tks lots n lots of pple for their help n also their faith in me...

first gotta tks mama sg... cos she trust me n let me help her handle some of the things.. thank for having faith in me.. hope i din let u down...

2ndly, gotta tks my colleagues both from same n dif projects... u guys were great.. manage to get things done rather smoothly... tks to pc too...

3rdly, tks to steven, weilong, ryan, ck, lao da n er... er... er... still of those if i left out, u noe who u r ok.. u r in e list too.. tks for helping me out with e food n all... couldn't hv done it without u guys...

hmmm... honestly speaking everything was quite smooth lah.. except for a little hiccups.. hmm dun think wanna elaborate it here... i guess those in e commmittee know wat happen lah... ust a grp of pple who like to pick bones in beancurd... hahaha... but if they really so gd, then ask them to organise one lor... common cooking knowledge also dunhv.. buay tahan sia.... haha ehaf ehaf.. say somemore i will say everything out.. wahahhaha...

let me think huh.. still got what huh?? had a new hair cut.... now got a new nick by vani... she call me e deceiving gal... ahhaha cos she say from front look at me, it seems tat my hair is short... but see from behind then realise that my hair is long lor... hmmm i hv become a deceiving gal sia.. wahahha.... quite like this hair style.. cos can style til very stylo... then in camp also dun look so auntie.. wahahhaa.. quote what ah boy had said," something is wrong with ur hair...it's funny but it's nice.."this shld be it if i rem correctly.. waahhaha...

hmmm... went orchard n had sushi tei one of the day.. managed to fully utilised e vouchers.. steady right? then wanted to take neoprint de.. but something happen... then end up in plaza sin... then i had my eyebrow trim..

wah... still got many things no time to write, cos my superstar showing liao.. haha will post some pics later on.. i go watch my superstars lor.. hope derrick or junyang will win.. wahahah byee..